It's quite a long story actually (one that I've bored Lily to death with). To summarise: There's a girl who I've personally pulled through some difficult times, and all she could do in return was disrespect me. I did like her a lot once, she was quite dear to me, yet I know more than enough that I cannot exceed my boundaries. As a nerd, and as an introvert, there are just some things I do not do. Gradually, her disrespect caused her to fade out of my favour, and she's been spreading a bad name about me in her circles, but that's little of my concern. I would've been fine with that.

Until today. I was hanging outside my Physics class when I heard "David! Can I speak with you?" [David, being Scott's real name, used in official circles]. This alone was quite odd, seeing how no one talks to me, let alone ask for permission. I looked up and saw the aforementioned girl, smiling. I nodded silently and she promptly asked "Do you still like me?".

First thought: What kind of question was that!??!
You're asking someone who you've disrespected, snobbed and defamed, if they still like you?

Luckily for her, I'm not the type to rub things back in peoples' faces, so I answered with my only honest answer: "I might." The following lines were spoken:

Her: "I'm free, you know."
Me: "I don't know."
Her: "I thought you always knew?"
Me: "..."
Her: "Well, I'm free."

I've been spending most of my afternoon analyzing the recent turn of events. Let's take some notes down.

• Cute angels don't flirt with nerds. Actually, no one flirts with a nerd. That's just wrong.
• She's never spoken to me personally before, let alone ask about my personal feelings.
• I haven't been keeping track of her personal life, even though I have predicted that her relationships were broken the moment she started them.
• Almost every girl hates me. I'm the last guy you would want to be seen with.

Basically, she's on pretty bad terms, while I have nothing to do with her. So why the sudden approach?

As far as I know, it was a simple probe into unknown territory, building confidence in herself that she can succeed with another relationship. Problem is, I'm probably the worst possible target. Another long story, but let's just say, "I'm a nerd."

There's not much else I can conclude from this isolated incident. However, the new day always brings a fresh breeze. This isn't the last I've seen of her.

See, you're clearly just a nicer person than me...cos I have this feeling I would have said the whole "You're asking someone who you've disrespected, snobbed and defamed, if they still like you?" bit. Loudly. Probably with obscenities included for good measure.

Define "nerd" anyway :P I don't think I ever use the word...not seriously, anyway. Maybe, like, when one of my dear techie friends starts telling me about, oh, god, linux programming or something...but only jokingly.

Now then, I can't do bullet points, cos I'm useless. But.

1. "cute angel" is only your perception of her, right? and "angel" implies a nice person, a person who appreciates when someone helps them out. sounds like she doesn't... and the most unexpected people flirt with the least likely people sometimes. I've seen it, believe me. :P

2. suspicious and strange.

3. she's not the most stable of people, then?

4. WHY?? i'm sensing mucho negativity here...

I did warn you that I'm not a very nice person, didn't I? Gooooood. To be honest it sounds like she knew that you liked her and was feeling down or lacking in self-esteem, and she figured you'd be " a safe bet"...but that might be harsh. I dunno. I don't know her. Or you. Maybe she's only just realised how she feels? Somehow it seems unlikely, though. My advice, harsh as it is (also just realised you didn't actually *ask* for advice, but hey, you're getting it anyway), is to steer well clear, cos to me it sounds like she'd take advantage of your "good guy"-ness.

hmm. just re-read that. sounds like a cross between dawson's creek and a cosmo agony aunt. oh well. :P

take care

Rach

xxx

Well, I did tell her directly that I liked her (hey, I'm a nice guy, what do I have to hide?). A while ago I did sense that she had closer feeling towards me, though not enough for anything drastic.

I've spoken with some other unrelated people, and they've come to the same conclusion that she's relying on a 'safe bet' to rebuild her confidence. However, 'safe bet' would be a pretty bad way of describing me. I am a wanderer, like the wind I come, like the wind I go.

As far as I know, I doubt I'll hear from her again anytime soon. Not like I'm actually looking forward to it.

Scott ~ you know you're the one who's creating the girl problem right?!

You shouldn't even be thinking about this girl >> not after what she did!

She's using you as the "fall-back" guy and ofcourse it's because you're nice [c'mon you're not even a JC fan and you helped me to set up this Forum!].

So don't give into her manipulative ways <rolls eyes> even if it is hard to turn away ~ girls are the masters of using guys to their advantage [LOL I know that you know why I know] ...so unless you've got your heart set on pursuing any kind of serious relationship with her, don't let her get you down again...

[Insert pessimistic statement here]

LoL

Seriously though, there's little she can do to sway me from my neutral position. I may be an 'easy target', but to influence a wanderer is a miracle in itself. After all, you could run up to me and kiss me and I still wouldn't flinch.

I suppose being a cold-hearted bastard does have it's advantages.

EDIT: Actually, lots of girls who normally don't talk to me actually are now. :blink:

Strange indeed...